Thursday Ten...Things I don't like about christmas/December

1. Sidney was born on the 23rd of December, it really kind of sucks to have her birthday that close to christmas. She is always already on vacation. By the way....she was due January 14.LOL

2. School, teacher gifts.

3. School, christmas plays and songs during the day. Have they ever heard of working parents?

4. I'm getting tired already of christmas music.

5. Everybody seems to be in a bad mood, it must be a holiday thing.

6. I'm not even close to have my christmas shopping done.

7. Christmas is way to commercialized for my taste.

8. Whatever happened to Peace on Earth?????

9. I gain weight. I just can't help it.

10. I can't get into the christmas spirit at all this year.

ME

Yes, this one is all about me for a change. Well, maybe not all of it. LOL. I'm really glad that this week I actually seem to be getting back to normal. Meaning, it seems my brain is functioning again. Last week was absolutely horrible. I had a lovely panic attack last Tuesday morning and didn't even make it to work. I just felt so bad about myself, as a mother, wife, worker...just in general. It didn't help that there was a change at work for me. So I basically only made it through the week on meds. I hate doing that, I actually despise it, but I really didn't want to be sitting at work and hyperventilating. I went to see my doctor on Friday morning (yes, a psych doctor) and I didn't get new meds, but just a new perspective I guess.

So last weekend was actually pretty nice, we had really nothing going on and I got to catch up on laundry and housework, hang out with the girls in front of the TV to watch a bunch of episodes of the witches ("Charmed") which they love. And I have to admit I like it too. I got to crochet a bit, and actually said NO to people coming over on Saturday. Woohoo.

This week seems much better, I have a much better outlook so far (keep your fingers crossed), I'm actually wearing heels, a skirt and make up today. Also the change at work seems to be turning out for the better, I get to leave at 5 right on the dot, and I'm home by 5:30. Love it. I really need to remind myself to not want to take on the world. I can't do everything, even if I try. I should not feel guilty about wanting an hour to myself to read in peace in quiet or watch a TV show without being interrupted 10 million times.

And I don't feel bad that I actually gave the kids cans of Ravioli for dinner instead of a healthy homecooked meal. (OK, that doesn't really happen too much)

My wish for christmas is to get a good attitude towards my surroundings and my family and to be able to get a couple of hours of "ME" time.