Thursday, December 13, 2007

Thursday Ten...Things I don't like about christmas/December

1. Sidney was born on the 23rd of December, it really kind of sucks to have her birthday that close to christmas. She is always already on vacation. By the way....she was due January 14.LOL

2. School, teacher gifts.

3. School, christmas plays and songs during the day. Have they ever heard of working parents?

4. I'm getting tired already of christmas music.

5. Everybody seems to be in a bad mood, it must be a holiday thing.

6. I'm not even close to have my christmas shopping done.

7. Christmas is way to commercialized for my taste.

8. Whatever happened to Peace on Earth?????

9. I gain weight. I just can't help it.

10. I can't get into the christmas spirit at all this year.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

ME

Yes, this one is all about me for a change. Well, maybe not all of it. LOL. I'm really glad that this week I actually seem to be getting back to normal. Meaning, it seems my brain is functioning again. Last week was absolutely horrible. I had a lovely panic attack last Tuesday morning and didn't even make it to work. I just felt so bad about myself, as a mother, wife, worker...just in general. It didn't help that there was a change at work for me. So I basically only made it through the week on meds. I hate doing that, I actually despise it, but I really didn't want to be sitting at work and hyperventilating. I went to see my doctor on Friday morning (yes, a psych doctor) and I didn't get new meds, but just a new perspective I guess.

So last weekend was actually pretty nice, we had really nothing going on and I got to catch up on laundry and housework, hang out with the girls in front of the TV to watch a bunch of episodes of the witches ("Charmed") which they love. And I have to admit I like it too. I got to crochet a bit, and actually said NO to people coming over on Saturday. Woohoo.

This week seems much better, I have a much better outlook so far (keep your fingers crossed), I'm actually wearing heels, a skirt and make up today. Also the change at work seems to be turning out for the better, I get to leave at 5 right on the dot, and I'm home by 5:30. Love it. I really need to remind myself to not want to take on the world. I can't do everything, even if I try. I should not feel guilty about wanting an hour to myself to read in peace in quiet or watch a TV show without being interrupted 10 million times.

And I don't feel bad that I actually gave the kids cans of Ravioli for dinner instead of a healthy homecooked meal. (OK, that doesn't really happen too much)

My wish for christmas is to get a good attitude towards my surroundings and my family and to be able to get a couple of hours of "ME" time.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Tuesday Ten: What I am thankful for.

1. My kids. They brighten my life (usually....lolol)

2. My husband. Yes, eventhough he can be a mayor PITA, I know he'll be there for me and the kids when I need him.

3. Having finally the guts to tell my mother off. (It didn't get anywhere like usual, because she denies everything, but at least I got it out.)

4. My house. Eventhough it's small, it's ours.

5. Being able to not have to worry about where my next meal is coming from.

6. Online friends. It's a great outlet and has saved me many times.

7. Having 4 days off, being able to cook thanksgiving dinner and enjoy it for the next few days.

8. My physical therapist. My left hand function is pretty much back to normal.

9. A glass of good wine. It just makes an evening so much more relaxing.

10. Our health. Yes, we all have stuff going on. (I swear the day I turned 40 my body decided to fall apart and work against me) But overall we don't have anything seriously wrong with any of us.

Monday, November 19, 2007

Soccer is done

whewww, soccer season is over for us. I'm kind of happy and sad at the same time. Sidney had a play off game on Saturday but they lost, so they are out. They were really unlucky, it wasn't that the other team was so much better, they were just luckier. I felt bad for our team because they deserved to win. So we even had a few tears shed after game.

Brenna had her last game Saturday and I was really disappointed with her coach this year. Coaches make such a difference. She had a great coach the first 2 years and was rated as one of the best players in her age group, but I don't think that will happen this year. She was very unmotivated and her coach didn't really connect with her. I truly hope she'll get a better coach next year.

Mackie had a great season. I'm sure she will get a high rating. She was really good. I guess having to deal with 2 older sisters really helps. LOLOL. I really liked her coach. And I felt so bad for the family. His wife got diagnosed with breast cancer 2 weeks into the season. But she was such a trooper, she showed up for most of the games and was always cheery. She even crochet a scarf for me because I refereed a lot of their games and made their hair bands. What a spirit.

Now I actually get my Saturdays back.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Balance

(Thanks Cat)

This is something I have been thinking about a lot lately. Balance in my life. I don't believe I have any. Actually it depends what balance means. My work is fine, I get my kids to school, manage to get them fed, do the homework with them, manage to get them to 3 different soccer games on the weekend, and to remember all the other odds and ends a mom has to remember during the week.

So what am I thinking about? ME. Where does it leave time for me? And yes, it is very easily said that you need to make time for yourself. I just don't seem to be doing a good job with that. I do manage to read for enjoyment almost every day. Usually it's at night right before I go to sleep. Can I blame this one on my mother too? Eventhough I hate to blame her for everything, I do think she is partly to blame. I guess if I had enough self confidence, I would make time for myself? Heck, I don't know. I try to be wonderwoman, but it is not working. Geee...what a surprise.

OK, back to my regular scheduled life. The "poor me" whine is over.

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Happy 7th Birthday Brenna!!


Seven years ago today, I should have known that we were in for a wild ride. I was told by my doctor that the baby had turned around and was now feet down. He also told us that it rarely happened at 37 weeks, but oh well....Brenna did it. LOL.
So we went from a normal birth routine to a "go to the hospital right now" birth via c-section. I have to say that I was stunned, because I did not expect that.
Brenna was born around 8:30 pm, screaming loudly, weighing in at 7 lbs 10 oz eventhough she was 3 weeks early.
It has certainly been a challenging route. She is definately the one that challenges us the most at this point. I truly believe that the traits the drive us crazy right now, will serve her well later on in life.
I truly hope she'll find her niche in life and also remembers that her mom and dad love her very much.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!!!!!

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Halloween





So we survived Halloween. The kids had great time. And of course we have way too much candy. But I honestly have to say that I had more fun with Halloween when they were really little. The toddlers are just too cute all dressed up. It's so much fun to watch them.


Look at how cute they were. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Tuesday Ten: My own this time

Ten reasons why I'm thinking of cutting my parents out of our lives.

1. Mom tried to ruin my wedding day. Up to the last minute we didn't know if my parents were showing up or not. The night before I was told what a big mistake I was making and they probably wouldn't come to the wedding. I had booked an appt. for her with me and my bridesmaids to get our hair and make up done. She didn't show up for that. They finally showed up right on time for pictures. My opinion? They just wanted pictures to show everybody in Germany.

2. It was a nightmare when Sidney was born. She came out, supposedly to help out. Oh my god, in the hospital she threw a fit because she didn't get to hold the baby first. When I got home with Sidney, all she did was badmouth Paul, didn't help me one bit. I almost had a nervous breakdown, and Paul finally threw her out. So she decided to leave in the middle of the night and didn't want to take a taxi, wouldn't have Paul drive her to the airport, so I had to drive her to the airport, 5 days after giving birth, and listening to her all the way to the airport what a slave I am to my husband, and she had no clue how I ended up being this person that mistreated her.

3. Before my grandfather died I flew to Germany to see him one last time. I was really close with my grandparents and knew this would be the last time for me to see him alive. The day before I was flying back I asked my mom to go with my to say good bye to my grandfather. I knew it would be one of the hardest things I ever did in my life. Her response? "No, you have to go alone, I can't deal with that drama."

4. She has told me that the only reason that my grandmother was nice to me was to get back at her because supposedly grandma hated mom so much that she used me to get back at my mother. Whatever.....

5. She continuously twists things around and never takes responsibility for anything.

6. I was told that my kids are brats and we are bad parents.

7. When I was in the hospital 2 weeks ago, they didn't find it necessary to call me. I had my cell phone with me the whole time, nothing. When I got back home I got the "oh so concerned mother speech"

8. When I was pregnant with Mackenzie I told her what name we decided on. She told me she would be too embarrassed to tell anybody that she had a new granddaughter named Mackenzie, since it was such an awful name. So she decided not to tell anybody.

9. The whole time they were here she didn't cook once. Paul and I cooked dinner most of the time. Would it have killed her???????

10. I being told all the time:" When I get old, I don't want to go into home, before I do that I will kill myself with tablets, you have to take care of me."

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Ten things I would like to get rid of

1. My parents. Seriously...they are going back to Germany on Monday. It can't be soon enough. I'm a nervous wreck and need to get back to normal.

2. My washer and dryer. I really really really want new ones. But we just got a new TV, so I guess I'll have to wait a little.

3. whining....I CAN'T TAKE IT.

4. Root beer. Can't take even the smell of it.

5. some pounds. Yes, I 've gained weight again, but man, with my parents here I had to do something fun.LOL

6. my old towels.

7. Mackie's bed, she needs a new bed.

8. my clothes from like 10 years ago. Why do I still have them?

9. stuff under the kids' bed. SCARY

10. Paul's car, I hate that thing, it's a 2000 Dodge Ram.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Is this it?

Do you ever wonder if this will be your life? .....forever?...........

Is it a strange thought? At this point I'm just continuously on the go, working, scheduling by boss and my family, keeping up with homework and birthday parties, doing laundry and trying to keep the house semi clean. Will it ever be different? I know people keep telling me to enjoy this time while the kids are young, but frankly, I'm not really enjoying it. I enjoy going to soccer games with them, I enjoy snuggling with them and looking at them when they are asleep, but I don't enjoy the mess, the arguing and the homework. I guess it comes witht the territory and the things we enjoy or dislike will just change from period to period.

I wish.................

I could have enough money to buy a ranch somewhere in Montana and enjoy life completely and fully.
I find myself never having enough time to do the things that would be joyful. I seem to run out of time. Oh well............

Friday, September 28, 2007

Friday before the storm

and no, not the weather kind. My parents are coming into town on Monday. It'll be a very trying period for me. Eventhough I'm 40 years old, it seems like I revert back to the little girl. That's the way she treats me too. Pretty unrespectful and only her opinion counts. It's very hard to maintain a positive attitude around her, but I will try my best.

Three soccer games again tomorrow. Sidney at 8:30, Brenna at 9:30 and Mackie at 2:30. After that I really really have to clean the house. I've been working so much lately that it resembles a pig sty. Not even talking about the millions of loads of laundry I have to do, including sheets and blankets.

Oh yeah, we also found 3 kittens that we have to bottle feed because mom abandoned them. Like we don't have enough animals in the house. LOL

Ilka

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

I'm BAAAAACKKK!

Soccer season is back. Here is one of the first pictures with most of Sidney's team and Mackie in the picture.



It's been a while, but my life has been really hectic. I had to get used to a really really busy job which I like, but it took some getting used to.
The girls are doing great. School is back on and Sidney started the Magnet program. If Brenna could only remember to actually bring her homework home we'd be rocking. These are the pictures from the first day of school.





Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Ramblings

Busy busy busy

that about sums it up for me right now. New job....which is real busy and and soccer season starting. And being on a diet, which makes me cranky anyway because I love to eat. Not a good combo. LOLOL.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Tidbits

First the big one: I got a new job, and I start July 30. The commute will be so much easier, no freeway for me anymore, no more downtown...YEAHHHH.

Mackie's party was nice and she had a good time. She got lots of Barbie stuff, one of the things came with a dog that you can feed, and then it poops too. No kidding..LOLOL. It also comes with a pooper scooper Barbie style. The things they come up with now. She requested a chocolate cake ( I have to post a picture later), and it was yummy, it had dark chocolate shavings all over the cake, and a sign made out of white chocolate which said "Happy 5th Birthday Mackie." We saved the sign in the fridge and Mackie got to eat it yesterday. OMG, you should have seen Sidney. She started crying that she didn't get any chocolate. I couldn't believe it. She is 8 years old and acted like a 2 year old. I hate these little dramas. Poor neglected child. LOLOL

Soccer season is about to start again and I signed up to be assistant coach for Sidney's team. Yes, just another thing because I have too much time on my hands. Now I have to attend 3 classes to be able to tell 8 and 9 year olds how to kick a ball.

Let the fun start again with 3 soccer games every Saturday, on 3 different fields, 3 different times. LOLOL. They all have so much fun playing soccer and they are all pretty good at it, but Brenna is extremely good, especially for her age. She basically scored every game, most of them multiple times. She just doesn't get tired and has no problem to take the ball away from somebody else. I guess that's the benefit of the middle child. LOL. She just has more drive than Sidney and Mackie. I hope she can keep it up and sticks with it. At the coaches meeting, the coaches for this year were fighting over who would get her on the team. (Proud mommy here...blush) But we are sticking with her old coach, she's been with him for the past 2 years and he really knows her well and knows how to get her going and have her listen to him. In addition we will have 3 practices during the week, and obviously I have to be at Sidney's practices, I just hope they start around 6, so I won't have a problem getting there on time.

We are finally taking our trailer out again and are going to the Lake this weekend on Friday. I almost had a heart attack when I noticed that the last Harry Potter book is coming out Saturday. I called up the local supermarket to make sure they would be selling it. LOLOL. And yes, they are.

I think that's it for now....

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Ten Things I would do if I won the lottery

1. Move out of LA and buy a house/ranch somewhere else. Maybe Sedona...or the coast of Maine.


2. Not work anymore, do volunteer work. Something with kids.


3. Have a housecleaner that also does laundry. LOLOL. I hate doing laundry.


4. Buy a nice RV and go travel around.


5. Take my girls to Europe on the big tour.


6. Move my parents and Paul's parents over here so they can stop bitching, but not too close to us. No walking distance.lolol


7. Have horses, Paul loves to ride horses, and so do I ( just haven't done it in a while), and we would love to have some horses for the kids. They would be in heaven.


8. Make sure that each of the girlies have a nice college fund.


9. Buy a vacation home on Sylt (island in the North Sea off Germany)


10. Take a vacation without the kids in Bora Bora.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Five years ago today

I was on the way to the hospital, and Mackie was born in the afternoon. I can't believe it has been this long. My baby is growing up fast. LOLOL.

I will always remember how scared we were because her official due date wasn't until Aug. 8, so she was pretty much a month early. But she was fine. She has been pretty amazing ever since. Potty trained herself at 2 because she didn't want to wear diapers anymore, and I had a hard time finding underwear for her because she was little. LOLOL. She also started talking much faster than the other 2, we had full on discussions with a 2 year old. At 3 years she called Sidney "pathetic" and used in the the right way too. LOLOL. She also can throw major tantrums, you can see the little lips quiver...watch out.

And she certainly knows how to deal with her sisters. She can hold her own and has no bproblem retaliating.

Happy Birthday Baby!!

Monday, July 09, 2007

Heat

Growing up in Germany, I liked nothing better to go on vacation somewhere where the sun was shining all the time and it was hot. Now I hate. If I would pick a vacation now, it probably would be Alaska. LOLOL.

I can't stand the heat anymore. I think this year we had like 3 inches of rain. For the past weeks, it has been continuously over 100 degrees. Just going outside is miserable. As soon as it gets over 90, I don't like it. Unless I'm at a nice resort, by the pool, with a gorgeous guy serving drinks. LOLOL.

It makes the whole day hard, on the 4th of July we couldn't even eat outside because it was too hot. I took the kids to the park on Saturday, and we didn't stay too long because of the heat. Even though it was all in the shade. Even the poor dogs don't want to go outside. I really would love to have 4 seasons again. Darn, my kids get excited when it rains because it's so rare.

And a little snow for Christmas would be great too.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Ten things that brighten my day

1. Knowing I don't have to get up with the alarmclock and go to work. I like to just lounge around for a while and not have to deal with getting everybody ready.

2. No traffic. I hate sitting in traffic, so when I have a clear path I'm in a good mood already.

3. My "mom friends". Seriously, talking about the every day stuff makes the day a little easier.

4. Mackie: For being a little "mini adult" and such a little smartass.

5. Brenna: For being the most loving and not selfish kid I know. (Eventhough she can be a major PITA.LOL)

6. Sidney: For being a "mini-me." I can see a lot of myself in her. Good and bad. LOLOL.

7. My dogs. They are always happy to see me. :)

8. A good glass of wine. And I mean good... not the box kind. Some of my fav. right now are Meridian wines, Sonoma Cutrer (which I usually can't afford) and Turning Leaf.

9. Being able to sit outside in the morning before anybody is up. Now granted, that rarely happens, but it's so peaceful.

10. Good music. When I hear certain songs on the radio or CD I sing along (and not very good) and it puts me in a better mood.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Bad words

Last night we are sitting in our lovely air conditioned house and watching Iceage 2, when I hear out of Brenna's mouth. "You are full of shit" No, not to me, but to her sister. Nice talk for my lovely angel. Well, they all know the consequences for cuss word, yep, she got soap in her mouth. I don't think she will be saying that word in a while. She was screaming her pretty head off.

I will let certain word slide....like stupid or "Sidney you are a ding-dong," but I draw the line at that one.

So hopefully she learned her lesson.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Ten things about summer

1. I don't have to get 3 girls ready for school....yeahhhhhhhhhhh

2. Remembering my summers as a kid. A lot of them were spent with my grandparent.

3. High electricity bills.LOL. We run the air almost 24/7.

4. I don't like summer very much in LA, it's too hot.

5. BBQing a lot, eventhough we basically BBQ all year round.

6. Letting the kids play in the water outside, they get such a kick out of it.

7. Drinking ice cold beer, nothing better in the summer.

8. Wearing flip flops every day. I'm lucky, I can even wear them to work.

9. Icecream, I love love love icecream any day of the year, but it's even better in the summer.

10. Not having to worry about homework and lunches.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Babies

No, not the cute cuddly kind. MEN. I swear to god I've had it after this weekend. DH did something to his right ankle and it's all swollen and inflammed. He get's this like once a year. But you would think he just has been diagnosed with cancer. MAN, I'm still struggling with the nerve stuff in my left arm and I'm still going to Physical Therapy. But of course anything he has is ten times worse.

Throw the mood from hell on top of it and you got a great combination for a horrible weekend. ARGHHHHHHHHHH.............why are men such babies?

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Kindy graduation















Yesterday Brenna graduated from Kindergarten. Off to first grade. She is all excited. I really liked her teacher. He did a great job keeping her busy so she wouldn't get into too much trouble. LOL. Seeing her there yesterday, I remembered back when she was born. She was so tiny, and look at her now. Even my last baby is starting Kindergarten this fall.




Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Ten Things I did today

1. Got three girls ready in the morning.

2. Dressed Brenna for her Kindy graduation today, she wore the same dress that Sidney wore to her Kindy graduation 2 years ago. Mackie will wear it next year too.

3. Dropped Mackie off at the sitter.

4. Went to work.

5. Left at 10:15 to drive to Brenna's graduation.

6. Stopped at a flower shop and got her some roses and a grad ballon.

7. Attended the graduation and listen to them sing 3 or 4 songs. Too cute.

8. Took pictures that I can't download until tonite. :)

9. Gave both teachers a "Best Teacher Award" and a Barnes & Nobles GC.

10. Went back to work. (all this happened before 1 pm. LOL)

Monday, June 18, 2007

Father's day weekend

It was a fun weekend. The kids made some really cute things for father's day in school. Brenna made something with her footprints and a saying how she is trying to step into his footsteps. Awwwww, it made me tear up. And Sidney also did some artwork and wrote about daddy. Mackie and Mommy got Daddy a tent. Yes, he wanted a tent. So he can take off on the weekends and go camping with the girls. Mommy doesn't do well in a tent, since it doesn't have air conditioning. LOLOL.

Sidney went to a pool birthday party on Saturday and she had a great time. One of the boys gave the birthday girl flowers, it was too cute. :) Afterwards we were going out for dinner but we got too lazy so we just BBQ'd some steaks and had them with corn and salad. Sunday morning I made a big breakfast. Actually it's more like brunch since we don't eat til about 10:30. I try to do it every Sunday so we can have one breakfast together as a family at least. This time I made fried garlic potatoes, bacon, maple sausages, chorizo and eggs.

Did I mention lately that I hate LA? It's way too hot again, it was close to 100 degrees this weekend and I can't stand it. I don't know what we would do without the A/C.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Ten things that have made you the unique and quirky person you are today

1. My parents, and unfortunately not in a good way for most of the things. Especially my mother. Her own insecurities got transferred onto me, and I'm the only child. You can figure out the rest.

2. My kids. In my twenties I didn't even know if I wanted kids. Now I have 3 girls. I also always was afraid of childbirth and dreaded pregnancy in my twenties. When I got pg for the first time I actually didn't mind it at all. Granted, I had 3 pretty good pregnancies and seeing your baby girl for the first time wipes anything else out.

3. My husband. In a good and bad way. We will be married ten years this year and I did figure out that you do have to compromise and that no marriage is perfect. While we do get into heated arguments since we both have a temper, I also know that I can always count on him no matter how much he complains. LOL. Especially in a crisis situation.

4. My move to America. This one is a biggie. I'm now speaking a different language than I did in my childhood. I spoke only german for 22 years. Now I think and dream in english.

5. Always working. From when I was 16 I always worked. Over here, I had my own apartment and supported myself way before marriage. While I would like to spent more time at home, I think it would be hard for me not to be working.

6. My grandparents. I have to say that they probably were the only people that loved me unconditionally. I really miss them and wish they could have met the girls.

7. Dealing with depression. Another biggie. It's hard to admit it, even harder to have to take medication every day. I think I finally came to terms with it eventhough I still haven't admitted it to my mom. She still believes that depressed people belong in a nut house. LOL.

8. Growing up an only child. I liked it for the most part, I always had lots of friends. But I hated having all the attention from my parents. LOLOL. I hate it to this day.

9. The computer. It's funny but true. It allows me to have friendship over the internet (which Paul still doesn't quite get.lol), and keep in touch with people in Germany. With some of the women here I have been emailing and talking for the past 8 years. That's a long time.

10. Not having any family around here. We basically adopted our sitters family. Her daughter and husband are the kids godparents and really love them like their own child. We have adjusted, but it's hard at times not to have anybody around. You get creative. LOL

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Finally some pictures of the newly painted bedroom




The room is painted in 3 different colors. Darkest one behind the bed, then a little darker for the ceiling and then lighter for the other walls. I also did the curtains. We had vertical blinds before and I hated them. I'm much happier with the curtains.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Weight

ARghhhhh, I hate this topic. Seriously...until I was in my mid twenties I never even thought about my weight. When I got married at 30 I was a size 6 and thought I was too big. Yeah right....little did I know.

Got pregnant with Sidney and had her at 31 and still was able to bounce back pretty fast. No problem, then had Brenna at 33 and Mackie at 35. That's it. The end of a normal figure for me. My body was never the same, the two last ones were c-sections and it seems like I kept part of them in my midsection, there is a tummy I never had before. Where did that come from?

If I fit into a size 10 now I'm a happy camper, NOT FAIR. I want my body back, the one I had at 25. Ok, fine....so I am 40 now but still. My big problem is that I don't like to exercise. Taking the kids to soccer practice should count in my opinion. I really really need to start doing something before I won't be able to move anymore.

Of course lovely husband is not a big help, every time I vow to eat better or just have a salad for dinner, something comes up. Last night he didn't want to cook (he is the cook in the family) and ordered Pizza. Now living at my house you would know that it is indeed a rare occasion that happens maybe twice a year. We usually eat pretty healthy and don't do a lot of junk food. Soooooooooo, I had 3 slices of pizza last night. Not exactly diet food.

It's just a neverending circle that seems to creep up on me. I need to get a handle on it somehow.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Tuesday Ten: 10 things I whine about

1. Money, money and money. Yes, it could be much worse, but it would be nice to NOT have to think about it EVER. To just be able to buy something without having to plan it.

2. My mother. Oh boy, this is a big one. I really really wish I had a normal mother.LOLOL

3. Whining......yes, this is a big one. " MOOOM, she is mean to me" "MOOM she got icecream and I didn't, it's not fair"

4. Siblings fighting. I'm so tired of living with 3 supposedly human girls who fight like animals.

5. My weight. Enough said.

6. Not having any free time. I'm usually never EVER alone in our house. Somebody is always there with me. Last Sunday DH took the girls on a walk and I had the house to myself for 2 hours. WEIRD!!

7. High gas prices. I love love love my Excursion, but I have to mortgage my house to fill up the tank.

8. Not winning the lottery. It would make my life so much easier.

9. DH...when I go to bed at night after work, dinner and homework and laundry, I'm tired and just want to read for half an hour. Me bending down is not considered foreplay and NO I don't want to have sex every day. REALLY.

10. Not having a second bathroom. With 3 girls, it's insane. We probably will add on, but at this point I'm seriously considering a chamber pot (is that the right name???LOLOL)

Monday, June 04, 2007

The weekend

I took the girls to see Shrek 3 and I have to say that I liked it. So did the girls, eventhough Mackie fell asleep the last 15 minutes. LOL. The part I liked the most? Seeing the Princesses kick some butt. Seriously..........I like it because they were not the poor little girls having to be rescued by the big strong male. LOLOL.

We also finally caught the possum that was eating all the cat food at night. Paul sat a trap and he caught it Saturday night and then went with the girls on Sunday to release it in the mountains so he/she can live happily ever after in the forest. Of course Friday night Fiona (one of the cats) got caught in the trap and we had to free her in the morning. Stupid cat. LOL.

Also watched about 3 episodes of "Deadliest Catch", I'm hooked on it.

Friday, June 01, 2007

Favorite toy

The favorite toy right now at my house? What would it be? The Gameboy? Or any other expensive crap? NOOOOOOO.....it's a plunger. Yes, you heard right, a bathroom plunger.

We just redid our bathroom and my kids have discovered the plunger. They fell in love with it I guess. They fight over who gets to play with it. I just don't get it. It's the most amazing thing. Who could have guessed?

Here they have a room full of TV and DVDs and Gameboy games and they play with a plunger. Whatever.......

Thursday, May 31, 2007

When I was young



This is a picture from my elementary school days. Oh my god, I was so young. LOLOL. I'm in the bottom row, second from the right.

What is really sad is that I can't even recall everybodys name anymore. I still can come up with probably half of the names. Makes you wonder where everybody is at this point. What happened to our dreams and hopes???

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Ten Books I read lately that I liked

























































My long weekend

I will kill them, yes I really contemplated it, but don't want to spent the rest of my life in jail. Kidding aside, here is what happened. They broke Brenna's bed, and for once Brenna was not involved. Mackie was the one jumping up and down on it, and it finally broke. After we told them for the millionth time....NO JUMPING ON THE BED.

The beds were not the sturdiest anyway, but still. I warned them before, so now the 2 younger ones only have one bed in their room, so they can either sleep together in one bed or one sleeps on the floor. I don't care.....I will let them sweat it out for at least a month before I even think of buying a new bed.

I swear...boys could not be worse.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Banging my head against the wall

Brenna is really testing my patience. Ok, so I don't have any patience left. Sometimes I just don't know how to handle her anymore. She can be so stubborn. Like yesterday. I came home around 6:30, they were playing outside. Fine, asked them if they did their homework. Of course not....why would I expect that hubby actually would remind them? So Sidney sits down and does her homework. Brenna asks me to sit down with her and help her, which I don't mind. So we sit down and she has 3 pages to do for Kindergarten. One is basic subtraction. 3-1=? She tells me the right answer but then proceeds to just fool around on the paper, writes the number the wrong way, erases it, writes it again, erases it, so this goes on a few times. I remind her a couple of times " Brenna, you need to do it nicely, otherwise I will just take it away and you won't get credit for it."

Guess what....yep, I ended up taking it away and she went to school without homework today, which doesn't seem to bother her that much. She was upset last night, but man...........I just lost it, I'm pulling my hair out. Was I ever that stubborn? At that age? Not one of my prouder mommy moments I have to admit. Why can't I just be serene and calm and talk quietly to her? Yeah right.........................

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Ten Things I would never own

Kind of late, but here it goes.

1. A Mini Cooper, yes the car, it's way too small. I would feel like I'm sitting in a tin can. LOL.

2. Long haired dog. I love dogs, but can't deal with the long hair everywhere, there is already enough dirt in my house, I don't need to add to it.

3. A Mini-Van. Sorry guys, I know a lot of people drive them and like them. I don't.

4. Designer Jeans, I can't see myself spending $500 on a pair of Jeans. One of our attorneys does that, of course she is not married and has no kids. LOL

5. A fur coat.

6. A corvette. For some reason I hate that car.

7. A really expensive cell phone. I just don't get it, I like my simple phone, I don't need all the extra gadgets.

8. A motorcycle. I'm deathly afraid of them. My husband likes them, but I won't even go on one, no thank you very much.

9. Fishnet stockings. Sorry, they just don't look good unless you want to achieve the stripper look.lolol

10. A movie by Tom Cruise. I hate that guy.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Confession time

I have a confession to make. I like to watch scary movies. Yes, the horror flicks. The gorier (is that a word?), the better. Call me a psycho or sicko.LOL. I will cry at Steel Magnolias or any normal movie where an animal dies, but give me a good horror flick and I don't mind having 20 people chopped into bits and pieces. Thankfully my lovely husband likes them too, so I don't have to be a closet watcher, and OH MY GOD, so does my oldest daughter and she is only 8. Yes, I let her watch certain movies. But I did draw the line at the SAW series. She didn't get to watch those.

Her favorite channel is SciFi, loves the show Ghost Hunters ( so do I by the way), and likes every movie where a huge animal eats humans. That's my girl.....lolol.

My fav. scary movies? They have to be with a good story line too. One that still freaks me out is "The Exorcist," then of course the SAW series, very sick.....I love it.

One movie that freaked me out was "The Ring, " maybe because it was about a little girl, and I have 3 girls. I usually don't get affected by scary movies at all, but that one did it to me. Oh and of course the old "Halloween" movies with Jamie Lee Curtis. Anybody remember that music. EERY.

So there.........my secret addiction is out.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Parents????

Some things I really just don't get. Maybe I'm to old fashioned. LOL. This morning I dropped the kids off at school and here comes a boy, who is in Kindergarten, with a Mohawk hairdo, shaved sides, and the Mohawk is blue. And totally spiked up in the air. WHAT??????????

Is it just me? Now come on, you can not tell me that a 6 year old boy goes up to his parents and asks for that. It has to come from the parent. And then I'm thinking about all the work that goes into this hairdo every morning. I think he spends more time on his hair than I do, or actually his mom does. I'm surprised they even let him be in school like that, and that they don't make him go home and come back with a more normal hairdo.

I get the whole "Freedom of expression" thing, but really..................for a six year old?
So maybe I am old fashioned. I don't buy short shorts for my girls, or mini skirts, Brenna does wear a lot of skirts, but most of them are actually skorts. I also don't see the point of exposing your navel at 6 or 8 years old, so no little tops here either. Sorry, but it has to cover your tummy. LOL.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Bitchy

Yes, I am in a bitchy mood today. I have a cold and can't breathe through my nose AND I'm at work. Why oh why can't they invent some wonder drug for the fricking common cold?

All I want to do is go home, curl up in bed and watch trash TV. I never thought I would actually like the series "Charmed". My girls like to watch it, and now I'm hooked. Go figure, 3 witches who kill demons. Well, I got 3 little witches at my house that can turn into demons very quickly.

As to the worst mother award of the year...yesterday was Brenna's field trip, and I had no clue 1) where she was going, 2) what it was. LOLOL. Lovely husband knew, so I figured that would be enough and they could call him if she got lost.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Tuesday Ten: Things in my shopping cart

1. Diet Coke, I'm addicted, but at least I switched to the caffeine free one.

2. Carrots and Cucumbers: They make a great snack for the kids at school or at home.

3. Wine: For THOSE hard to take moments

4. Lettuce: We usually always have a salad with dinner.

5. Cereal and milk: A must have in my house.

6. Bread: It's usually wheat bread for the lunches.

7. Eggs: They make a quick dinner

8. Frozen brussel sprouts: Sidney's favorite vegetable.

9. Little water bottles and big water bottles.

10. Canned soups: Make a quick snack or dinner eventhough I don't like to do it too often because of the high sodium.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Experiment going on in the bathroom

We will see for how long this will go on. Somebody left an empty small water bottle on the sink. It's been sitting there for 5 days. I refuse to throw it out. Actually this weekend I cleaned around it and it doesn't seem to bother anybody else. Any guesses on how long it'll be there?

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Tuesday Ten:Ten Things I Think About While I'm Driving

1. What did I forget to do? Inevitably I will think of some things that I forgot to take care of.

2. Why do these maniacs (that would be my girls) always have to start fighting and yelling while I'm talking on the phone?

3. Why do I have to sit in this grueling L.A. traffic every fricking day?

4. What would I do if I win the lottery? Dreaming about not sitting in traffic and having a huge piece of land somewhere on the coast with a beautiful house............

5. The gas prices went up again????????? It's killing me. Right now I pay $3.43.

6. Thinking about what to do first when I get home.

7. In the morning: Thank god they got to school on time without major fights or scars. LOL

8. Daydreaming, it's the only time I have by myself.

9. How different my life would have turned out if I had stayed in Germany.

10. What to do for vacation this year.

A good day

Yesterday I got a phone call from the school that Sidney was accepted in the Magnet program. Basically it's a Gifted/High Ability Program that takes place at the same school. They have one class set up for just that. Sidney is really excited too and we are very proud.

But.........

then she telling me last night that she hopes she can make it, how much harder it's going to be, how much more she has to work etc.

So I guess in the next couple of month we just need to concentrate on letting her know that she is smart, and that it will also be a lot of fun, since they get to do more. I really hope we can alleviate her fears and get her to enjoy it.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Tuesday Top Ten: Ten Things I Love About

1. Sidney: She is a mini me and it amazes me everyday. She is very responsible for her age, I love her dark brown eyes and she is a drama queen.LOL

2. Brenna: Mini Paul, but he doesn't want to see it.LOL. If there is trouble, Brenna is usually in it, but she has the biggest heart and has the cutest angelic little face. Very stubborn.

3. Mackie: Mini adult. She talked in full sentences very early and has an amazing vocabulary for her age. She has the cutest mischievous grin, but she is also Miss Attitude.LOL

4. Internet: It enables me to actually have or keep up with friendships I couldn't otherwise. The mommy boards are a great help and outlet for mommy tantrums. LOLOL

5. My car: It's big, it's comfortable, and I feel very safe in it with the kids. (Yes I hate the gas prices though)

6. Our pets: They provide humor and joy every day and teach the kids a lot of things. We actually had Fred longer than Sidney. LOLOLOL

7. Our house: I'm very grateful to own our house, eventhough it's small, but we have a decent backyard which counts for a lot here in California.

8. My sitter: She is absolutely amazing and I have no idea what I would have done without her the last 8 years. She has a huge impact in raising our girls. And she is the one that will take all three of them gladly if we want to go away for a weekend.

9. My cell: Yes, it's horrible, but I don't know what I would do without it. LOLOL. It's my lifeline a lot of times, especially with scheduling the kids.

10. My husband: Yes, he has a temper and so do I and so do the kids. LOLOL, it makes for a loud household. But I love that he cooks very well, and I hardly ever have to cook. And we are not talking about canned stuff here. He makes roasts, stuffed peppers, marinated chicken, grape leaves and bakes from scratch. I hardly cook anymore.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

The Future


I'm getting to believe that my kids will either end up pg at 16 and living with their boyfriends, or gang up on us and hold us hostage in our own house, or be alcoholics or drug addicts.


I swear, I don't know how I will survive the teenage years when they are driving me crazy now, with fighting, clothes and attitudes.

Sidney will finish highschool and be a waitress because she doesn't want to go to college. Brenna will need to find a job where she can eat and play soccer. And Mackie has the right attitude for Hollywood. So there........all taken care of.

I will be happily drinking whatever I can find and ask my DR. for a lifelong supply of Xanax.

Monday, April 30, 2007

Yeahhh

we finally bought a new bed and new mattresses. We got a mahogany sleigh bed and I love it. It'll be delivered on Friday. Now we "just" have to paint the room and get new carpet in by then. I'll be daring, Paul doesn't really care about the color, so I picked them out and will get them tonite. Here are the colors, top one will be one bedroom wall, second one the ceiling, bottom one the other walls. I'm tired of white walls and want some color, so we'll see how this comes out. I'm excited about it though.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

My project

I'm working on a needlepoint pillow. It's supposed to be a christmas gift for mother in law, or my mother. My plan is to make 2 and they each get one. Hopefully I can do it. You can't really see the colors that well on this picture, but it does look beautiful. Let's hope I have the patience to stick with it. To me it's actually relaxing, I do it at night or on the weekends when I watch TV, and usually Sidney will join me with one of her projects. She is crocheting a scarf and working on a little latch hook kit. I've tried the crocheting with Brenna but she doesn't have the patience yet. She'll do a few stitches before she runs off to do something else.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Hmmm...don't really know how to title this

But let's start with that I have short hair now, yes, I cut it myself last night and it's not even, but it actually doesn't look too bad considering I was pissed when I did it.

I took yesterday off to particpate at our school's bookfair, so I was at the school all morning. And then they had open house from 6-7:30 at night. They were excited because they did a bunch of stuff in their classrooms. Anyway, I told Paul since I was working the bookfair from 6:30-7:30 I wanted to be there at 6 to talk to Sidney's and Brenna's teacher and look at their classrooms and also talk to a first grade teacher that I want for Brenna next year.

So my lovely husband is home on time, but is in a totally shitty mood, stuff happened at work, and he put in an application but heard that he won't be eligible until December. Soooooooo.....totally horrendous mood and just sits there, and tells everybody "I'm not going to the open house, I don't want to be around people." Fine, whatever, but I can't take 3 kids, I have to work the fricking bookfair, that was supposed to be your job. He still doesn't want to go, so of course Brenna and Mackie are upset because I had told Sidney earlier that she could help at the bookfair. So I'm pissed already.

Now it's 5:30 and he gets in his car and takes off. Hello!!! I need to leave at 5:45 to have enough time. Can't really take all 3 with me. 6 comes around, he is not back, so I start walking towards the school with all 3 of them. Halfway up we meet him, (Oh I didn't know you wanted to go this early), so Brenna and Mackie go back with him and Sidney and I go to the school.

It was really nice, the kids did a lot of cute stuff in the classrooms, I really enjoyed it. Of course halfway through the bookfair Paul shows up with Brenna and Mackie, stays for 10 minutes and leaves.

I get home with Sidney around 8 and he still in a horrible mood and we start arguing, I know, I should know better than start an argument when I know he is in a bad mood already. But of course I couldn't help myself. So things going back and forth,and I accuse him of being selfish and everything has to focus on him etc, luckily all the kids are in bed and don't get to witness the lovely exchange, and he tells me "You are 40 now, and still have long hair. What's up with that? Wanna be younger?"

I got so pissed, and he finally went in the trailer to sleep (good choice buddy) and I went to the bathroom with scissors. Yes, not my most mature decision, but damn it felt good.lololol

Monday, April 16, 2007

School pictures



Sidney's and Brenna's school pictures came back, and I don't really like them that much, but they aren't too bad considering I totally forgot that they were taking pictures on that day. Oh well. On Friday Brenna got an achievement award for "most improved" which made me pretty happy, since she finally seems to get the concept of school, and doesn't treat it as a social event where she has to entertain everybody.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Sidney's project

This is the result of planting cucumber seeds and yellow bean seeds. On the right are the beans and Sidney is totally excited that they are actually growing. The cucumbers are much smaller but they are moving along. She also had her first strawberry from her own plant. All three of the go out every day and check the progress and can't understand why we don't have cucumbers yet. LOL. Sidney also planted cabbage, but I really don't know how they are doing. Aren't they supposed to grow like a round head of cabbage? I have no clue, not an expert gardener here, so far they look like little bushes with just leaves on there. Then we also have Lemon Thyme and Basil. Let's hope everything survives.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Ten things I thought I would never do

1. Have kids. Seriously...in my twenties I thought I would never kids. Look at me now.LOL

2. Say certain sentences like "Mackie don't eat the dog food, the dog is hungry" or "Brenna don't lick your sister"

3. Eat sushi. The thought of raw fish didn't appeal to me. Now I love love love it.

4. Live in America. When I was growing up I certainly didn't picture myself living here and raising a family here. If somebody would have told me that I would have declared them insane.

5. Being a soccer mom. In Germany my dad used to drag me to soccer games and I hated it, I thought it was the most boring thing. Now all 3 girls play soccer and I love watching them, so much that I actually signed up for assistant coach.

6. Give my kids cereal for dinner. LOLOL.

7. Be on antidepressants. This is a touchy subject for me and kind of hard to talk about, since I never thought I would have to deal with this. I should be able to just "snap" out of it, but that certainly doesn't work.

8. Learn a second language fluently (well, kind of). For the first 21 years I only spoke german, granted I had english in school, but I hate to admit it, I wasn't very good.LOL.

9. Be happy to live far away from my mother. Long story....most of you people know what I'm talking about.

10. Be married. Yes....I actually told everybody that I never wanted to get married. And then after I got married for the first time and got divorced after 3 years, I swore never to make that mistake again. yeah well..................

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

My arm, AGAIN

I finally got the brace, and I'm supposed to wear it as much as possible which turns out to be really annoying, but I guess that's the point. Then I had a lovely nerve conduction test done yesterday. First they measured how my nerves in my left arm react to electro shocks. As if that wasn't bad enough then they switched to needles, not big ones, more like acupuncture, but the worst part was that she then had me move my arm/fingers while the needle was in there. Oh yeah, real pleasant. NOT. They think that it should go away with the brace and physical therarpy. I really really hope so, I would like to have the use of my whole left hand again. I kind of liked it. And I don't want surgery if I can avoid it. So let's hope for the best.

A mom story on the side.

I told my mom about my hand trouble a couple of weeks ago and then told her yesterday that we really didn't want to do much over Easter, we usually have people over and make a big dinner, but this year I don't feel up to it. I don't want to do all that cooking and cleaning only with one good hand. So it's just going to be the 5 of us and we'll make a nice brunch for ourselves.
So her response was " What's wrong with you hand? Did you injure it?"
my response "No, remember I told you my little finger is numb and I don't have much strength in my hand?"
"oh yes...you said something, I thought you injured it now."

And that was it, no -how is your arm doing? or -what does the Dr. say? What's the prognosis? NOTHING! So I didn't even tell her about the nerve test yesterday. What's the point?

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Ten things I want to do this year.

1. Take our trailer out for a nice weekend by ourselves. No kids, no dogs....nothing. Somewhere remote, where nobody is around. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, so it might be selfish, but hey.....

2. Take Brenna for a weekend to Palm Springs. After Sidney graduated from Kindergarten, we took her, now it's Brenna's turn. Just her....and we'll stay at a nice resort.

3. Get a new bedroom, including new color on the walls. I'm tired of my white walls, I want some color on it, preferably light purple. We'll see how Paul likes that. LOL. And we need a new bed and mattress, I'm looking for a sleigh bed I think.

4. Get my doors inside painted. They are primed already....but that's it.

5. Try to do a weekend away by myself or with a girlfriend. Haven't really done that, but it sounds really good.

6. Have christmas shopping done by December. Yeah right, who am I kidding???lol

7. Be able to get along with my parents while they are out here. My dad is retiring in August and now they are planning to come out for 2 month in November, and leave in January. They will stay in Motel or somewhere else but basically spent every waking moment at our house. I'm dreading it. It's really bad that you don't want your own parents to visit for that long. But unfortunately mom and me clash over so many different things.

8. Take the kids to the beach this summer, yes we live in L.A. but last year I think we went to the beach once.

9. I would love to start working out again, even if it's just walking. I'm so bad when it comes to that.

10. Take a nice vacation with the kids without the constant bickering and fighting.....yes, a woman can dream....

Monday, April 02, 2007

New haircut for Brenna

I got my hair cut on Saturday, so I took Brenna with me. We were finally tired of the screaming matches every morning over brushing her hair. It was almost down to her butt. She was really well behaved at the hairdresser and hardly said a word. I was like



" Who are you, and what did you do with my daughter?"



But it's so much easier to handle now and she actually really likes it. Ialso should mention that we donated her hair to "Locks of Love" for cancer patients, since it was so long. She liked that too, and was proud of it.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

About Sidney






This is what I came home to last night. Sidney made this sign and put in on her door. Can you tell she is fed up with her sisters? At least we are still on her good side for now. She is such a little drama queen.









Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Ten Things I'd like to do if I had more time

Thanks Cat for the list idea.

1. More time alone at my house. I swear, whenever I'm at home, I'm never alone, somebody is always there. I want some peace and quiet.

2. More knitting, crocheting or needlepoint. I love to do these things and I still get some of it done at night watching TV, but I'm ususally to tired. And therefore any project will take me 5 years.

3. My looks, I'd love to leave the house with a styled hairdo and great makeup. Yeah right.......

4. Cook more. Paul is the cook in ther family. I actually cook pretty well too but never get to do it since he is home before me, and on the weekend we BBQ a lot.

5. Read more....yes I already read a lot, but since I love reading so much I would like to have some uninterrupted time, like 2 hours sitting outside in the sun.

6. Spent more time with each child. We do try to make a conscious effort of giving them each time with mom and dad, but I would like to see more of that.

7. I used to do watercolor paintings. I haven't done it in years and would love to pick it up again but I fear if I leave it in the living room one of my highly creative artists will finish it for me.

8. Be even more involved in their school. I did join the PTA, but I would like to have more time to actually spent at school with them.

9. Exercise. OK, let's not kid ourselves. I don't exercise, but I really need to start but never seem to find the time. Yes, I know it's a lame excuse.

10. More gardening, I actually like being outside and planting things and seeing them grow.

Monday, March 26, 2007

A rant and a brag

The rant goes first. We know a couple that have a 3 year old son, they came over this weekend and were all proud that he is pretty much potty trained. Well that's great, except for the fact that he still gets a bottle with formula every night. Supposedly the reasoning behind it is that he doesn't eat right. He only eats french fries, cracker etc. Talk about wrong nutrition here. I told her that at my house the bottle would disappear and I'm sure he wouldn't starve to death, at one point he would be eating what's put in front of him, because I don't think he would starve himself.

Now to the brag part, my kids eat really well, actually to the point that we have to look out that we get some salad at the dinner table, even if I make a huge bowl. They would eat the whole thing. Sidney also doesn't like to eat at school, so most of the time she takes her lunch because she doesn't like pizza her hamburger. Yes, I agree, it's pretty strange for an 8 year old.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Easter picture


Trying to get an Easter picture of 3 girls is madness. OK, so it isn't centered, but it was the best one. Every time I was trying to take a picture somebody was pouting, closing their eyes or doing something stupid. At least the dog looks right in the camera. LOL.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

The arm saga continues

I finally get the brace in the mail that I ordered. I'm supposed to wear it all the time. It's too big eventhough we went by measurements and it doesn't look like the right one anyway. It is so frustrating. I'm going to call the Dr. and tell them that I can't find the right one and that she needs to figure out where I can get it. I give up.........

Friday, March 16, 2007

Revelation?

Driving to work this morning I realised (once again) that since I had kids my appearance suffers. Since I have to get 3 girls ready in the morning, I'm lucky if I get any make up on, forget about styling my hair. Ponytails for me most of the time. How sad is that? Yes, yes, yes, I could get up earlier to look oh so beautiful but frankly I'm not a morning person and like my bed. LOL. Before kids I styled my hair every morning. Now people are surprised to see me with my hair down. Since I have pretty thick wavy hair, I do have to styly it somehow, otherwise it looks frizzy. But hey.......my girls' hair looks great!!!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

This wasn't too bad

I'm proud of myself, I survived this morning, the usual morning routine with the girls, without yelling at them or threatening them with bodily harm. It's really hard not to be loud or yell, just because between the 3 of them it's loud enough and it feels like it have to be louder. But this morning actually went pretty OK. Brenna and Mackie got a pony tail and I made Sidney a half pony tail, and she gives me this attituded " I HATE HALF PONYTAILS, I JUST WANTED A PONYTAIL. " So I told her that she needs to lose the attitude, go get a ponytail holder and ask very nicely if I can redo her hair. She did...LOL. But man, if this is any indication about the teenage years, I don't want to deal with it.

Mackie is in the lovely tantrum phase and I hate it. The other night she spent about 15 minutes in her room crying and throwing a tantrum because I put them to bed. Poor Brenna had to listen to her since they share a room. I just ignored it, which is not an easy task. GRhhh.


What I'm reading right now: I just finished "Step on a Crack" the new one by James Patterson, I liked it. http://www.amazon.com/Step-Crack-James-Patterson/dp/0316013943/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/104-1184248-8151124?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1173975912&sr=1-1

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

I've had it

I went to the Neurologist yesterday because I still have problems with my left arm/hand, no control over my little finger, it feels like it's asleep, and the hand is tingling and hurting sometimes.
Ever heard of Cubital Tunnel Syndrome? Me neither..........
Now I have to do a Nerve conduction test which involves electro shocks, nice. And hopefully start physical therapy because she told me that I already lost muscle mass in my hand. Great.....I feel like a real cripple now. I also have to wear a special brace for my elbow, because that's where the nerve is. Had to order it and of course it's not covered by insurance, it's $60. It's really annoying not to have full strength in my left hand, I guess I should be grateful that it's not my right hand.

Oh yeah , and if all this doesn't work I still might need surgery. Wahhhhh, I'm thoroughly depressed now.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Gardening

Sidney helped our neighbor plant flowers on Saturday and then asked me if she could get something to plant too. So I took her Sunday ( during 96 degree weather), and we got pots and soil, and she picked strawberries, and cabbage. Cabbage??? I have a strange girl? lol

We also decided to start her science project then and got a little greenhouse, and planted seeds for cucumbers, beans, carrots and basil. She'll photograph it every week and document which one grows the fastest and the biggest. Hopefully it'll be successful and we can actually plant them later on outside. At least a few of them.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Long time


I didn't update this in a long time, I really need to try to be better about this. Anyway...last Thursday we went to Disneyland, it was fine, but I get upset every time because Paul gets to go on all the "good" rides with Sidney, and I get to do "It's a small world" with the other two. Yes, it's a petty complaint, but what the hell?

The younger two don't like fast rides and just want to meet the princesses. The good thing was that it was a Thursday and we hardly had any lines, so no long wait times. I hate waiting in line.