Yeahhh

we finally bought a new bed and new mattresses. We got a mahogany sleigh bed and I love it. It'll be delivered on Friday. Now we "just" have to paint the room and get new carpet in by then. I'll be daring, Paul doesn't really care about the color, so I picked them out and will get them tonite. Here are the colors, top one will be one bedroom wall, second one the ceiling, bottom one the other walls. I'm tired of white walls and want some color, so we'll see how this comes out. I'm excited about it though.

My project

I'm working on a needlepoint pillow. It's supposed to be a christmas gift for mother in law, or my mother. My plan is to make 2 and they each get one. Hopefully I can do it. You can't really see the colors that well on this picture, but it does look beautiful. Let's hope I have the patience to stick with it. To me it's actually relaxing, I do it at night or on the weekends when I watch TV, and usually Sidney will join me with one of her projects. She is crocheting a scarf and working on a little latch hook kit. I've tried the crocheting with Brenna but she doesn't have the patience yet. She'll do a few stitches before she runs off to do something else.

Hmmm...don't really know how to title this

But let's start with that I have short hair now, yes, I cut it myself last night and it's not even, but it actually doesn't look too bad considering I was pissed when I did it.

I took yesterday off to particpate at our school's bookfair, so I was at the school all morning. And then they had open house from 6-7:30 at night. They were excited because they did a bunch of stuff in their classrooms. Anyway, I told Paul since I was working the bookfair from 6:30-7:30 I wanted to be there at 6 to talk to Sidney's and Brenna's teacher and look at their classrooms and also talk to a first grade teacher that I want for Brenna next year.

So my lovely husband is home on time, but is in a totally shitty mood, stuff happened at work, and he put in an application but heard that he won't be eligible until December. Soooooooo.....totally horrendous mood and just sits there, and tells everybody "I'm not going to the open house, I don't want to be around people." Fine, whatever, but I can't take 3 kids, I have to work the fricking bookfair, that was supposed to be your job. He still doesn't want to go, so of course Brenna and Mackie are upset because I had told Sidney earlier that she could help at the bookfair. So I'm pissed already.

Now it's 5:30 and he gets in his car and takes off. Hello!!! I need to leave at 5:45 to have enough time. Can't really take all 3 with me. 6 comes around, he is not back, so I start walking towards the school with all 3 of them. Halfway up we meet him, (Oh I didn't know you wanted to go this early), so Brenna and Mackie go back with him and Sidney and I go to the school.

It was really nice, the kids did a lot of cute stuff in the classrooms, I really enjoyed it. Of course halfway through the bookfair Paul shows up with Brenna and Mackie, stays for 10 minutes and leaves.

I get home with Sidney around 8 and he still in a horrible mood and we start arguing, I know, I should know better than start an argument when I know he is in a bad mood already. But of course I couldn't help myself. So things going back and forth,and I accuse him of being selfish and everything has to focus on him etc, luckily all the kids are in bed and don't get to witness the lovely exchange, and he tells me "You are 40 now, and still have long hair. What's up with that? Wanna be younger?"

I got so pissed, and he finally went in the trailer to sleep (good choice buddy) and I went to the bathroom with scissors. Yes, not my most mature decision, but damn it felt good.lololol

School pictures

Sidney's and Brenna's school pictures came back, and I don't really like them that much, but they aren't too bad considering I totally forgot that they were taking pictures on that day. Oh well. On Friday Brenna got an achievement award for "most improved" which made me pretty happy, since she finally seems to get the concept of school, and doesn't treat it as a social event where she has to entertain everybody.

Sidney's project

This is the result of planting cucumber seeds and yellow bean seeds. On the right are the beans and Sidney is totally excited that they are actually growing. The cucumbers are much smaller but they are moving along. She also had her first strawberry from her own plant. All three of the go out every day and check the progress and can't understand why we don't have cucumbers yet. LOL. Sidney also planted cabbage, but I really don't know how they are doing. Aren't they supposed to grow like a round head of cabbage? I have no clue, not an expert gardener here, so far they look like little bushes with just leaves on there. Then we also have Lemon Thyme and Basil. Let's hope everything survives.

Ten things I thought I would never do

1. Have kids. Seriously...in my twenties I thought I would never kids. Look at me now.LOL

2. Say certain sentences like "Mackie don't eat the dog food, the dog is hungry" or "Brenna don't lick your sister"

3. Eat sushi. The thought of raw fish didn't appeal to me. Now I love love love it.

4. Live in America. When I was growing up I certainly didn't picture myself living here and raising a family here. If somebody would have told me that I would have declared them insane.

5. Being a soccer mom. In Germany my dad used to drag me to soccer games and I hated it, I thought it was the most boring thing. Now all 3 girls play soccer and I love watching them, so much that I actually signed up for assistant coach.

6. Give my kids cereal for dinner. LOLOL.

7. Be on antidepressants. This is a touchy subject for me and kind of hard to talk about, since I never thought I would have to deal with this. I should be able to just "snap" out of it, but that certainly doesn't work.

8. Learn a second language fluently (well, kind of). For the first 21 years I only spoke german, granted I had english in school, but I hate to admit it, I wasn't very good.LOL.

9. Be happy to live far away from my mother. Long story....most of you people know what I'm talking about.

10. Be married. Yes....I actually told everybody that I never wanted to get married. And then after I got married for the first time and got divorced after 3 years, I swore never to make that mistake again. yeah well..................

My arm, AGAIN

I finally got the brace, and I'm supposed to wear it as much as possible which turns out to be really annoying, but I guess that's the point. Then I had a lovely nerve conduction test done yesterday. First they measured how my nerves in my left arm react to electro shocks. As if that wasn't bad enough then they switched to needles, not big ones, more like acupuncture, but the worst part was that she then had me move my arm/fingers while the needle was in there. Oh yeah, real pleasant. NOT. They think that it should go away with the brace and physical therarpy. I really really hope so, I would like to have the use of my whole left hand again. I kind of liked it. And I don't want surgery if I can avoid it. So let's hope for the best.

A mom story on the side.

I told my mom about my hand trouble a couple of weeks ago and then told her yesterday that we really didn't want to do much over Easter, we usually have people over and make a big dinner, but this year I don't feel up to it. I don't want to do all that cooking and cleaning only with one good hand. So it's just going to be the 5 of us and we'll make a nice brunch for ourselves.
So her response was " What's wrong with you hand? Did you injure it?"
my response "No, remember I told you my little finger is numb and I don't have much strength in my hand?"
"oh yes...you said something, I thought you injured it now."

And that was it, no -how is your arm doing? or -what does the Dr. say? What's the prognosis? NOTHING! So I didn't even tell her about the nerve test yesterday. What's the point?

Ten things I want to do this year.

1. Take our trailer out for a nice weekend by ourselves. No kids, no dogs....nothing. Somewhere remote, where nobody is around. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, so it might be selfish, but hey.....

2. Take Brenna for a weekend to Palm Springs. After Sidney graduated from Kindergarten, we took her, now it's Brenna's turn. Just her....and we'll stay at a nice resort.

3. Get a new bedroom, including new color on the walls. I'm tired of my white walls, I want some color on it, preferably light purple. We'll see how Paul likes that. LOL. And we need a new bed and mattress, I'm looking for a sleigh bed I think.

4. Get my doors inside painted. They are primed already....but that's it.

5. Try to do a weekend away by myself or with a girlfriend. Haven't really done that, but it sounds really good.

6. Have christmas shopping done by December. Yeah right, who am I kidding???lol

7. Be able to get along with my parents while they are out here. My dad is retiring in August and now they are planning to come out for 2 month in November, and leave in January. They will stay in Motel or somewhere else but basically spent every waking moment at our house. I'm dreading it. It's really bad that you don't want your own parents to visit for that long. But unfortunately mom and me clash over so many different things.

8. Take the kids to the beach this summer, yes we live in L.A. but last year I think we went to the beach once.

9. I would love to start working out again, even if it's just walking. I'm so bad when it comes to that.

10. Take a nice vacation with the kids without the constant bickering and fighting.....yes, a woman can dream....

New haircut for Brenna

I got my hair cut on Saturday, so I took Brenna with me. We were finally tired of the screaming matches every morning over brushing her hair. It was almost down to her butt. She was really well behaved at the hairdresser and hardly said a word. I was like



" Who are you, and what did you do with my daughter?"



But it's so much easier to handle now and she actually really likes it. Ialso should mention that we donated her hair to "Locks of Love" for cancer patients, since it was so long. She liked that too, and was proud of it.