Tuesday Ten: My own this time

Ten reasons why I'm thinking of cutting my parents out of our lives.

1. Mom tried to ruin my wedding day. Up to the last minute we didn't know if my parents were showing up or not. The night before I was told what a big mistake I was making and they probably wouldn't come to the wedding. I had booked an appt. for her with me and my bridesmaids to get our hair and make up done. She didn't show up for that. They finally showed up right on time for pictures. My opinion? They just wanted pictures to show everybody in Germany.

2. It was a nightmare when Sidney was born. She came out, supposedly to help out. Oh my god, in the hospital she threw a fit because she didn't get to hold the baby first. When I got home with Sidney, all she did was badmouth Paul, didn't help me one bit. I almost had a nervous breakdown, and Paul finally threw her out. So she decided to leave in the middle of the night and didn't want to take a taxi, wouldn't have Paul drive her to the airport, so I had to drive her to the airport, 5 days after giving birth, and listening to her all the way to the airport what a slave I am to my husband, and she had no clue how I ended up being this person that mistreated her.

3. Before my grandfather died I flew to Germany to see him one last time. I was really close with my grandparents and knew this would be the last time for me to see him alive. The day before I was flying back I asked my mom to go with my to say good bye to my grandfather. I knew it would be one of the hardest things I ever did in my life. Her response? "No, you have to go alone, I can't deal with that drama."

4. She has told me that the only reason that my grandmother was nice to me was to get back at her because supposedly grandma hated mom so much that she used me to get back at my mother. Whatever.....

5. She continuously twists things around and never takes responsibility for anything.

6. I was told that my kids are brats and we are bad parents.

7. When I was in the hospital 2 weeks ago, they didn't find it necessary to call me. I had my cell phone with me the whole time, nothing. When I got back home I got the "oh so concerned mother speech"

8. When I was pregnant with Mackenzie I told her what name we decided on. She told me she would be too embarrassed to tell anybody that she had a new granddaughter named Mackenzie, since it was such an awful name. So she decided not to tell anybody.

9. The whole time they were here she didn't cook once. Paul and I cooked dinner most of the time. Would it have killed her???????

10. I being told all the time:" When I get old, I don't want to go into home, before I do that I will kill myself with tablets, you have to take care of me."

Ten things I would like to get rid of

1. My parents. Seriously...they are going back to Germany on Monday. It can't be soon enough. I'm a nervous wreck and need to get back to normal.

2. My washer and dryer. I really really really want new ones. But we just got a new TV, so I guess I'll have to wait a little.

3. whining....I CAN'T TAKE IT.

4. Root beer. Can't take even the smell of it.

5. some pounds. Yes, I 've gained weight again, but man, with my parents here I had to do something fun.LOL

6. my old towels.

7. Mackie's bed, she needs a new bed.

8. my clothes from like 10 years ago. Why do I still have them?

9. stuff under the kids' bed. SCARY

10. Paul's car, I hate that thing, it's a 2000 Dodge Ram.

Is this it?

Do you ever wonder if this will be your life? .....forever?...........

Is it a strange thought? At this point I'm just continuously on the go, working, scheduling by boss and my family, keeping up with homework and birthday parties, doing laundry and trying to keep the house semi clean. Will it ever be different? I know people keep telling me to enjoy this time while the kids are young, but frankly, I'm not really enjoying it. I enjoy going to soccer games with them, I enjoy snuggling with them and looking at them when they are asleep, but I don't enjoy the mess, the arguing and the homework. I guess it comes witht the territory and the things we enjoy or dislike will just change from period to period.

I wish.................

I could have enough money to buy a ranch somewhere in Montana and enjoy life completely and fully.
I find myself never having enough time to do the things that would be joyful. I seem to run out of time. Oh well............